Some might say or think that I’ve almost forgotten my blog, but the truth is I have not. I wrote in my last entry that I prefer to write in Spanish because it’s better to write something than not write at all, but I lied. I didn’t write in either Spanish or English. Probably because I was so afraid to make mistakes or to expose my ignorance in a loud way, but impostor syndrome cannot be an excuse to learn what I need to learn.
So, here I am, writing something with all my emotions on the table, trying to find the perfect words or at least, approach readable grammar. Okay, setting aside all of those feelings, I want to update my curriculum and personal information. First, I am working as a System Engineer and Community Manager in a school with kindergarten, primary, secondary, and high school. I doubted whether to do it when the position was offered to me. My degree is in Philosophy, but the principal has known me for a long time, and many of my skills fit their needs. So I accepted the challenge, and now a year has passed. I can summarize these experiences in some central points.
- I can handle the pressure of emergent tasks, requirements, and different personalities (with different styles of work and flow).
- I know more than I expected. I understand how an internal network works, how to manage a central system of communication, and of course, how to be successful (in a normal way) on social media.
- I prefer to be behind a computer doing the magic part of everything. I prefer to do many technical activities to nurture my philosophical view. And I prefer to talk with people in common language instead of telling them difficult theories about everything.
So, I applied to a government program to learn about coding. I learned a bunch of lines to use in my terminal when I was a child, and tried a basic course in Ruby and read about LATEX but I didn’t make a real effort to learn how to code. It was always my wish in my to-do list that never became real, but this year it is a real goal.MisiónTIC2022 gives me the opportunity to receive high-quality lessons at a good university, on a flexible schedule with a significant amount of diverse people. I’m loving this process and how I’m learning from the very basics of code. Sometimes I stop to think (like right now) why am I making this effort? Why is it so important to me to learn about languages and how to develop tools? I don’t know the answer.
Sometimes I think about the increase in job offers (and their salaries) but sometimes I love to dream about the possibility of being part of an interdisciplinary research group, and becoming a data scientist, but I don’t know… all of those thoughts seem so far from me. And I can also summarize them in a single sentence: I know myself better.
Until now, that is. I have a real opportunity to move forward in my career with a scholarship if I can prove my knowledge and use of English so here I am, trying so hard to show that I am capable of overcoming my fears and mistakes to pursue my dreams.
print('Hello world! I am ready')
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